Acceptance II

I have been thinking allot about my earlier post about acceptance. I wanted to share a bit more about the process and my hopes for your own acceptance. First I wanted to say that yes something has changed and I feel way less anxious about how people feel about me. And yes something major changed in my heart on my birthday. There has been a couple moment leading up this one.
The first place I ever felt accepted was in the GLBT (gay, lesbian, bisexual, and transgender) community. You need to understand that I am straight if only to understand that I felt accepted in a community that on paper I did not fit in to. I could say anything I wanted be my self for real for the fist time and it was okay. I could make mistakes i could dress in whatever clothes it did not matter. I think this happens for many reason but I think that the most glaring is that most of the GLBT community have struggled their whole lives to fit in. So they create a community that has unconditional love it is so beautiful. I am even a little envious of how they do this because I am Christan. I full believe that the church is Supposed to be a place of love and acceptance and has fallen short for so many people! It upsets me so much it hurts. I have always strive to love and accept people no matter what. And I am working with a community of believers that strives to be this place of acceptance. It is so beautiful. But even the community of believers that I am working with we have all been hurt by the church. We want something different. We are working hard towards it and you can see that within the community! We strive for this cause Christ accepts us unconditionally without fail. That is something the church seems to have missed. Christ accepts whatever we are or are not, what ever we have done or have not done. He loves us! I know that for some of you that might be hard to believe but it is true Christ can handle you! The church might not be able to (hopefully you could find a group like the one I am working with they love you!) but Christ can and does!
thanks
Lolo

leadership...
seems easy enough. Seems even admiral. At this point it seems imposable. there is this idea that leaders know where there going and can take others with them. Not sure. I have a very loud personality that people are often attracts peoples ears. Maybe even all the orange i wear attracts there eyes. Now It has been suggested by some that I should take all this and lead these people. Where no idea but lead none the less. The thing that keeps tripping me up in my mind and heart. Is that I am very Good at making mistakes. And not like I wore a pink shirt with red pants but like have a shopping addiction bad. Now I will say that i am a leader at work this is not the same thing making sure that people make there sales goals versus making sure there souls are in order is a big difference. I see on one hand that all my mistakes, or lessons would make me a better teacher. But on the other I feel so unworthy of anyone even paying attention.
there are so many people who are leaders who fail and it hurts so many people. The thought of hurting one person is enough to stop me dead in my tracts. But what I am losing if i just sit on the sidelines? Does the risk outweigh the fear? can I make a good decision this time? What is the best for me? what is best for these souls who need a leader?
hummm....