I long for the silence.  I'm listening for it. When will it be here?

Life pushes me in a million different directions, at a billion different times. Everyone has there advise. Who is right? When will I have the time to even know what I'm hearing?

The cat dies, mom gets cancer, just another day, right?
How do I keep true?

Sacrifice and care in a fine balance, give and take, the constant battle in my heart, who wins?

Life is wonderful, people love me I love them, there is amazing food (my waist line shows it) peoples generosity is overwhelming,   I AM LOVED.

Who am I trying to please?
Are we all thinking the same thing?
Am I too week or maybe too strong?
How do I change history?
How do I spend money wisely?
I need a vacation but cant afford one. The classic maybe vacation is even the wrong word. I think I need a retreat.
What am I even trying to say?
I want to love you?
How do I do that?
Am I really listening too you?
What if I hurt you?
Will that be okay?
Am I saying what I need to?
Can you vacuum for me?
Am I being  the person I want to be?
Breath in, right? I know it will get better, I know others have it worse!